A writer. I knew it was what I wanted to be. The fascinating universe of language – the way those neatly penciled letters could paint pictures in your mind, pictures of galaxies and mountains and cities and people. The way you could imagine and order the fate of characters all your own. At eight years old, I was sure that that was what I would become.
At 11, I was certain that I would be an actress. As I sat, transfixed, on that April night, “Little House on the Prairie the Musical” playing before my eyes, I didn’t think that anything compared. In speechless admiration of the whole atmosphere, I told myself that acting was what I would do.
At 13 it was singer; after listening to a recording of myself, that dream was abandoned, and at 15 I decided that a teacher was what I was destined to be. But in the end, I loved all those things. Each one gave me a way to express myself.
I’m sure that you, too, had brilliant ideas as a kid about what you would do “when you were grown up”. As you can see, when I was young (and even now, to be honest), my imagination ran wild. However, God was teaching me about letting Him work in all areas of my life. I started praying that His will would be done and that He would show me what He wanted me to do with my life. I knew that it was the right thing to do, even if His plan didn’t include the things that I wanted or I enjoyed. I started looking for verses to help me.
- Psalm 37:5 – “Commit thy way unto the Lord;
trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.”
- Proverbs 16:3 – “Commit thy works unto the Lord,
and thy thoughts shall be established.”
- Proverbs 3:5 – “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart;
and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him,
and he shall direct thy paths.”
- Jeremiah 10:23 – “O Lord, I know that the way of man is not in himself: it is not in man that walketh to direct his steps.
- Proverbs 20:24 – “Man’s goings are of the Lord;
how can a man then understand his own way?”
- Psalm 37:23 – “The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord: and he delighteth in his way.”
It was hard – it IS hard – when you realize that your dreams are nothing if they aren’t also God’s will, when you see that it’s either them or Him. When you become aware of how small you are, and how much smaller your desires.
But my reflections floor me.
Because I suddenly noticed that all of my dreams, though maybe not in the way I had imagined, had come true.
I still write, even if I’m not a famous author. I’ve been able to participate in multiple Christmas and youth group plays (always trying to get the most dramatic parts of course). I often have opportunities to sing special music in my church. And I am a Sunday school teacher.
So I learned as I looked back that when you give your dreams to God, very often He will give them back to you in a way that is so much better than how you imagined. Instead of using these things for myself, God has shown me how to use these different things I like to do to serve Him and bring Him glory. It has been so much better than anything I could have planned!
All the little things you love to do…do them for the Lord, use them for Him. I get really excited as I see little dreams coming true all the time, but in God’s time & God’s way. Giving my life to Him was the best decision I have ever made.